Dear All,

I'm home !
On friday after a lot of bargaining and a fair bit of stropiness I managed to get out of hospital at about 9pm. I cannot tell you how good it felt. I cried and cried as we drove away it was just so wonderful. Russell's mum was still here which was great as she just had everything ready and waited on me. Before we got home I had to shuffle round M&S in my slippers for some things that I might like to eat!! It was great !

I'm very wobbly and very thin but it is getting better.

We went home and I had some new potatoes and green beans - oh bliss and then strawberries. Unfortunately it all came up again and I was beginning to worry that maybe I had come out too soon, coupled with the fact that I have to drink 3-4 litres (water!) a day and thats a lot when you have to sip it, so I have felt fragile and nervous.
Saturday came and Russells mum went home and the boys were set to return.........
Russ and I had such a relaxing day and the boys eventually got home about 6pm after a series of train journeys which included being chucked off the train at one point for not having valid tickets! Bloody hell there's always some drama.
Anyway more tears as I opened the door to them. Say no more.

Today is Monday and back to the hospital this morning for blood tests and some platelets.
That took most of the day and so now I'm here and i feel ready to let you all know that I'm out.
Don't be fooled there is a long way to go yet and I fully expect to be back in hospital at some point, but one day at a time. And I am so enjoying just every single minute.

There is lots that I cannot remember about the last 3 weeks and it's probably just as well, but what I do know is that my friends and family stepped up big time and pulled me through.
When all I wanted to do was step into my dream where it was peaceful and quiet, Russ kept telling me I could have both.
I will never be able to thank them enough. Lynda nursing me through the night, night after night. How can I repay you? Jane and Claire you bathed me and kept me entertained and consoled me. Ali, you brought me apples.Mum and Dad you were constants. Rosy - I know you were there too. Russ words fail me - your strength.
And the boys who came to see me when I was really too delirious to recognise anyone - I love you.

As for all my friends and bloggers around the world your love has helped like you wouldn't know - so thank you.
That's it for now guys, I'm listening to the eagles on the radio and putting my feet up with some very funny orthotic things on my legs they look like ski boots !they're to help stretch the muscles at the back of my knee that have just wasted.
Lots more to come as the weeks go on, no more hospital til wednesday for now though!! Yippee. (fingers crossed)

Lots of love for now,
M
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